11.19.2010

The Departure.


We all know the story of Adam and Eve and the serpent and the fruit.

We all know the curse that came of their decision.
(Or do we?)

“I will greatly multiply your pain in childbirth, In pain you shall bring forth children; Yet your desire shall be for your husband, and he shall rule over you.”

To women, this is painful.
To God, this is painful.

He did not want to implement this, but it was a natural consequence of the Woman’s decision. Just as they suffer in the physical separation of their bodies from the bodies of their children, God suffered in the physical and spiritual separation of His being from their being. With each new life comes a reminder of the first death (and a general dislike of the first woman). At the first they stepped out from under the protection of God and the first man, so they are forever cursed with the overwhelming need for protection, to feel protected and guarded (hence the fascination with fairy tale princes and knights in shining armor).

“Cursed is the ground because of you; In toil you shall eat of it all the days of your life. Both thorns and thistles it shall grow for you; And you shall eat the plants of the field; By the sweat of your face you shall eat bread, till you return to the ground, because from it you were taken; For you are dust, and to dust you shall return.”

To men, this is painful.
To God, this is painful.

He did not want to implement this, but it was a natural consequence of the Man’s decision. Men are cursed with weakness. The first man stood idly by while his wife killed herself and all others. From then on, he must counter his weakness and grow strong in order to survive, much less truly live. Men work the ground not only for food, but for the strengthening of self, to have a sense of adequately protecting and growing. Men are cursed with insignificance. They must earn, produce, protect, achieve in order to see their true selves, to see their First selves (hence the fascination with dominance and physicality).

Both partners receive a curse that flows logically out of their previous actions.
Both sections of the curse have a central cause, a consequence more closely related to their actions than the curse itself.

They are no longer good. God is still good.
God cannot take a chance at marring His goodness. God must leave their presence and they His.

No more Us. Just He and We.
No more Together. Just Separation.
No more Arrivals. Just The Departure.

The second death.

11.18.2010

If this sounds familiar

If this sounds familiar, you come here often or at least once did.

I will be reporting (for certain this time) to a counseling session this upcoming Friday afternoon.
I'm paying for it. I'm going. I'm taking the initiative to make sure I'm really okay. Because I know that sometimes I'm REALLY not okay.

Whatever is in there and needs to go, it's coming out. (lies)
Whatever is not in there and needs to come, it's going in. (truth)

My Counselor will continue to counsel me.
But hopefully He will choose to become more evident through the face and words of Dr. Cheryl Warner.